Life after Hospital

I can't believe how quickly I feel so thoroughly better. I'm not who I was before all of this. But this huge Hospital has lifted off of me. I hadn't realized I was carrying that much around. I thought I had moments where I felt as if life were normal and manageable. Wow. I didn't realize how depressed I was. Oh, I feel so good. So relaxed.

Josh and I are both more relaxed about taking care of Alicia than we were with Toby, actually, despite her many meds, alarms, and cords. And Toby is adjusting to having a sister.

My children are so beautiful. And huge! Toby is tall enough to turn lights on and off now. And Alicia has outgrown my favorite outfit from two weeks ago by an inch and a half! Today Toby counted some rings up to five and helped his dad clean the bathroom. Currently he is stealthily trying to fend off some midday sleep. He called out a number of supplications addressing them to "anyone?"

It took a bit out of Alicia to make the move home, but she's doing well now. She's really eating more each day, which is our primary hope.

I can't say I miss having medical staff around all the time. Oh it would drive me nuts when the nurses would tell me that it was okay if Alicia went three or four days between poops! But yesterday morning I did freak out just a tad. I think that Alicia breathed in some of her milk. It sounded like she was breathing through bubbles. I called the nurse and there wasn't anything for us to do about it. By the end of the day she sounded just fine.

So, we are splendidly without event.

Oh. Visitors? Um, we can't have any. It's super important for Alicia to not get sick. We're locked down until at least the end of April. After that we'll see. For the next year it will still be very important to stay away from anyone who is sick.

We miss you.
I'm going to go rescue my nonsleeping child now.